Friday 24 February 2012

Feeling weird now. For the first time in my life, I did not care about an exam.. and went ahead to fail it. It feels... just so weird. Had no choice but to fail anyway, in order to drop to combined science >< I feel that I've let my teacher down, and myself down. :'( Why am I such a failure...

Saturday 18 February 2012

So much to say, but none can be expressed in words. </3 x infinite.

Thursday 16 February 2012

i've lost count of the number of nights i had been crying myself to sleep. i've always acted like i dont care, but i actually do care, do care about me not getting into the team. i mean, its our last year, our last chance to play together on the same court. everything was actually going fine until our most beloved coach had to leave for australia for studies. the new coach came and she was nothing but a suck, seriously. but that din't matter anymore. all i know now is its all over. in sec 1 and 2, the memories... i will surely keep them. training in the rain, teardrops, sweat, injuries, all falling sick at the same time, all were memorable memories. what is the most saddening is that we did not win top 4 together. almost did in sec 1 and 2 though. but lost the most crucial match by 10+ points in sec 1 and JUST 6 points in sec 2. really heartpiercing. we've done nothing but let our beloved coach down. i can't wait to say sorry, but i know we may never meet her again, even forever. chances of meeting her again is slim. if only if only time could turn back, but no. i dunno how long it will takes to heal this wound in my heart, but i know even if it heals, there will always be a scar that stays forever. that is, the failure to keep my promise to my ex-coach, which is also the last task assigned to me by her, before she left.
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